this is nothing more than a random urge to write.
because, in all actuality, i dont want to write some depressed whiney bullshit in school
free for my classmates to read.
no thank you.

im very angry with the fact that tony isnt here like he said he would be. like he promised he would be.
and
im upset with myself because i know ill be dissapointing kelsi as soon as second block comes around.

maybe michelle and amber are right.
maybe i dont deserve her; maybe im not good for her.
maybe im just what other people tell me i am.
maybe im addicted to pain killers and cigarettes,
like michelle seems to believe.

or maybe
people can shove their unecessarily intruding opinions down their throats and think about their friends for once.

i'm not the only hypocrite here
so shut your mouth and leave me alone

you say things that you don't have a damn right to think. these aren't your problems
i have enough of my own.

go home.
and stop trying to delete the few friends i have.